8/16/9 Pity pot

Yesterday was my day for the pity pot. Once in a while is ok. So now I'm off it. Seem to have gotten adequate rest and am a little more rested. Have more energy and more brain power. Actually if any day should be a pity pot day, today should be. The barometric pressure is whacked the weather indecisive and fibro appears to be flairing. I just won't let it take me over.

8/15/9 Just tired

Work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep, eat oh, did I do that today, no I forgot, oops. Is it any wonder I don't feel good? Then a co-worker keeps asking am I losing more weight, probably, I don't know that's the goal... but is it worth it? Another co-worker teases the crap out of me every day and after a long night, I just go off on him, is it me or my messed up brain? I have no tolerance. My world feels like it is closing in and getting smaller, so is this what it feels like as the light of knowledge gets dimmer? My head is just a constant ache at this point.

8/11/9 To Topamax or not

I don't believe Topamax ever did anything really for my headaches, maybe just dulled them a wee bit. It wasn't until the Folgard RX and now CardioB from OrthoMolecular Products that there was any decrease in the pain levels. The addition of Namenda in December literally turned my life around and I am probably as close to normal as I will ever be.

8/11/9 Periventricular White Matter???

Yesterday was not a good day for the head. Although a day off, it proved to be a royal pain. I did an experiment, I monitored BP when pain at peak... so was BP... diastolic in 130s-140s & systolic going into 90s. Otherwise hung around the teens and 70s, which is where I am today. The Metoprolol appears to have had an immediate effect, it seems to calm me down too. So, what are all these long words in the subject? Last year, it was what my neurologist called brain death. Today I find a link that maybe with the supplement combo (Folic Acid, B6, & B12) has done the most to prevent any further damage. It's true that I've had a heck of a time with my balance, stumbling over my own feet.

http://www.dizziness-and-balance.com/disorders/central/pvm.htm

8/9/9 Visual Disturbances

Not sure if this is just tiredness or an occular migraine. Not much pain, just really distorted vision. The weather is quite changeable with high heat index and now torrential rains. My FMLA has been approved the next year. Yeah. Now monitoring blood pressure and taking metroprolol's lowest dose.

8/4/9 Just because you can...

Just because you can doesn't mean you should! How true a statement that is! I knew I knew I knew that something I was making to eat has historically been a trigger several years ago, but I have avoided it for many years. Sure enough within an hour, it hit! Fortunately it's starting to go away

Had a good session with Pam today, she's excited to be the person I give my presentation to for my class. She has the syllabus and my personal learning plan. It's been a long time since we met for 1:1 session. I started reading the next assignment. Though was having some trouble concentrating and comprehending with the music in the background. I'm starting with the reading from Equal Circles "Religion and the Myth of Male Superiority." What I'm understanding is quite interesting.

Work will be work I don't want to get into it with anyone, just do my job and leave it there. I don't need this one to affect my health either. I already have enough anxiety and stress to go around, and with 3rd shift I don't need any more to deal with.

Spoke to a friend, and she seems to be having others who are rallying around as well. Either donating beads or time to recoup her product.

I am volunteering for Thursday after work to help recoup some o her creations. While they are not they way I make them, she will have things for her hewelry show this coming weekend.

I was not aware, but I did have a new script for Clnazepam, which will help me sleep and then get through work. All I need to do is get a few hours sleep tonight.

8/1/9 No wonder the BP is higher

I am so glad I have the weekend off. Sometimes people just like to cut you to the core. I need to stop being so sensitive and taking everything personal. I've not had 2 days off since my little incident. It should be really "relaxing."

Is it any wonder my blood pressure is elevated?

I have been coming home and collapsing the last couple of days. I have not normally been doing this, but I think the rest is so greatly needed.

So far today is bright and clear, no new headache, while yesterday was pretty foggy.